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Creme Yvette ("Hiyono Yuizaki") ([personal profile] tradesecret) wrote2018-12-21 10:24 am

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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-13 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
[He does know, and he doesn't want to have to argue that this is his self-flagellation for what happened. He doesn't want to admit that he feels like he needs to.

He feels his skin crawl as Yvette hums, and he shivers and holds himself for a moment before he finishes undressing and begins to wash himself off.]

You never died then, did you? In that house?
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-13 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
I see.

[That explains it. Eichi didn't mind the possession at the time, but it's hard to think back on how his thoughts were so warped.]

I was choked to death twice. I wonder why that was how they killed me.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-13 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Sure, give me the criminology perspective.

[It HAD been rhetorical but he hadn't expected her to have an answer. But he's curious enough, he'll bite.]
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-13 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I see~

[He understands wanting to control him. He's a wild beast, a monster unchained, just as Leo had said. And he can't deny... his own allure to being choked... as much as he probably should.]

... Like putting on a leash that one can't escape from.

[He's finished scrubbing down by then, and he doesn't really bother hiding his body when he finally looks to Yvette.]

I could use a little help with my wings now.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-14 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
You're fine. They're not made of paper.

[And he's without feathers, too.] Don't be too gentle, or they won't even get cleaned.

[His wings curl a little, testing new joints that hadn't been there on his feathered wings.]
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-15 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
They feel wonderful.

[He won't lie. And he melts into the touch, too. He never knew how tense he was until someone had hands on him.]

Never knew I'd be so happy to lose those feathers.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-19 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
It does.

[He feels freed without those horns, and that thought makes him wonder for a moment about the symbolism of that. They're a heavy weight, symbolizing his sins, painted gold to pretend they are a halo.

Eichi reaches a hand up to run a hand through his hair, over the places where his horns usually are.]

Mmmmh... I don't much care for the huge changes to my body, but I suppose that is just... [What he deserves.]
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-20 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
I'm no more or less human for having wings, fangs, claws, or horns. And neither am I more or less healthy.

But it's a lot. Useless wings that cannot fly. A heavy halo. Scales on my fingers, keeping even touch from my grasp. I'm not only a monster, but a malformed thing, with pieces of other things tacked on my form, offering me no advantage and no shortage of trouble.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-20 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
You don't really know me well enough to know that.

[He folds his wings up when she's not focusing on them, heaving a sigh.]

No matter what, I end up making these wrong choice, and I keep doing wicked things, because of how ugly I am inside.

[He just keeps doing awful things like taking Fox prisoner or blackmailing Artemis. A good person would have realized his folly and not done such a thing. A human should have course corrected before taking three days to torment a person before using them as a hostage.]

I keep a lot from you. From everyone.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-21 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
Retribution? No.

[He frowns, staying there as Yvette touches his neck, where there is plenty of tension. Keeping his head held up is a lot harder than he'd like it to be.]

I already had that, didn't I? Dying, going to Hell, all of this...? Then people like Shishiou, Kanata, Itsuki-kun, Nagisa... all being here. But they're not, and it's no surprise. After all, this is a punishment.

But my sins are my own. Talking about them with uninvolved parties will not lessen them, and it doesn't change the decisions I make daily. It would just be needlessly making myself vulnerable.
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-21 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Eichi doesn't expect anyone would care, and he's not sure he'd WANT them to. Yvette pf all people seems to him like someone who would only want to know to satisfy her curiosity, and then if anyone else found these weak spots, it would only be to poke at them.]

Maybe that is part of it. I don't want to influence BARiTONES to begrudge any unit because of my sordid past. The way I deal with the people from my home world should only be up to me to decide, and part of what I've decided is to handle it on my own. You know how Kohime can be...

[Protective of him. Needlessly so. It's already bad enough that she knows about Shu.]

Either way, it is not the way of our unit to share such things is it? You don't share your problems. Absinthe does not share his. Alexander is no different. Even Crown keeps to himself. Kohime only allows others to see her because she is reactionary and cannot hide her feelings. Wildfire is just new, and even so... has he truly been vulnerable with us emotionally? Or is he simply doing his own version of masking himself?
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[personal profile] syckophant 2019-10-21 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Itsuki-kun has been here a long time. He has rapport with others despite himself, and he is the one who hates me the most, and overestimates the depths of my depravity, as well as the strength of my influence.

Taking on the leadership role is as much to soothe my battered ego as it is to protect the unit. If someone on our unit does something bad, it should be easy with my reputation to blame it on me and me alone, even if I had no direct hand in it.

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